Update

- The Lawyer dropped in this evening and we went out to dinner. Talked about sex and relationships as usual, both of us grappling with dying/dead relationships, trying to gain insights from the other of the feminine/masculine experience. I learnt something useful. That women may think of their lovers twenty times a day, that for us connection is a continuous day-long thing, but for men it’s compartmentalized. When they are at work during the day, the woman is not on their mind, work is. And then when she calls, or when the work day comes to a close, then they switch into the relationship mode. Explains a lot of things.

- Have booked tickets and found out about acco for the interview.

- Realized yesterday that I was following an old pattern. Have nipped it in the bud somewhat, well for now at least, though can’t be certain when I will fall into it again. So am making another appointment with the therapist. Am pleased that I recognized it, and even managed to curb it, but would like to discuss it fully to get it over with. Plus I think I have proved that I am not dependent on her – broke the decision to most, looked for places this weekend (though of course with the news that is now on hold), best of all went out and sourced good work. So I feel alright to go back to her now.

- The pain in the ears has returned. Don't think I'll be able to work tomorrow.